Living The Lie

so who did I fall in love with
if not you?
you say that it's not true
a deception
falling in love with a perception
I created of you
would I love you
as you really were
if I could have seen past her
the girl I wanted you to be
the one you chose to show to me
just a temporary thing
momentary upswing
I thought would last
instead drowned by your past
and the words we said
became lies instead
because when you moved on
that 'you' was gone
if she ever existed
as you insisted
she did not

except to me.

DJ McGonigal, October 2003